Letter to my prayer warriors

Mushrooms that grew from spores - Centennial park DDO 

Dear prayer warriors,

You can be better than yesterday, see blessings every day, and yet at some still moment, remember all the pain.

There are simply not enough stars to count all of God's blessings and miracles in my life, even through all the storms, but nights like these, you remember the dream that was stolen right from under your feet.

I wrote this poem to express the hurt of a marriage gone wrong. I hope you will rejoice with me, as I am still standing strong. But weep with me a little while, as you as well have gone through your own pain, maybe in the same way or another, yet you recognize the emotions pressing down on my heart, like it was yours, it's all the same.

I ask you prayers warriors, that as you read these words, please understand, we each carry the responsibility of each others' souls. Our friendships, marriages, relationships with family members, neighbours and colleagues, are to be cared for. 

When you read this one story below, think about yourself. The times you moved to quickly into any type of relationship or endeavor, making promises you knew nothing about, not fully considering the impact around you, only thinking about yourself. Yes, we are all guilty of this, in one shape or form, myself included, that was obvious, as from white satin, I was not born.

Prayers warriors, rejoice and weep with me, as I hurt but I'm still standing strong.

Weep and rejoice, as I share a sad love song. All the characters and perspectives in this tale, we have owned.

If you don't understand it, than it was not meant for you to know. As like any other talent God gives, only those with its matching need, will peep what they read:

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You are responsible for destroying our lives.

Instead of setting strong foundations, building, uplifting and creating legacy, you destroyed the very fruit of your loins.

Selfishly, and in the so called name of God, you convinced yourself of the lie that gave you permission to seek what is wrong.

You justified embarking in a relationship you had no commitment towards. If you couldn't even commit to God, our Creator, and if you couldn't even choose to care for your own flesh, how could you commit to a spouse and a few kids.

You speak loud and make promises you were not yet equipped to keep. You satisfied your ego, while presenting a saint's face. And than you wonder why we are in so much pain.

Our children suffer, our family and community. Yet all you do is blame the other person, he, her and him.

Father Father, how great is Your grace in front our disgrace.

Save him from himself, save me from this shame. Our family is broken hearted and yet I carry them all in prayers at night on my knees.

Yes, we smile, do what we have to do,  pretending life is more peaceful now that he is gone, but my children and I cry in silence, our hearts our simply torn.

Written by Animsay